frustrated

alright. so, i'm kind of frustrated at the world right now and wish that there were nicer people around.

I don't know if I updated with the whole Chara incident. Basically, what happened... so me and chara liked each other. I went over there and we were all watching a movie together. It was... August Rush. We started holding hands during the movie. She did not resist one bit. In fact, she wanted it. She told me afterwards, that about a week earlier, she had left her hand open for me to hold it while we were watching another movie then as well. So, that was fun, adn I felt good about it as well. I went over like the next night or something and we watched another movie and held hands then too. Scott, one of my roommates, kept on joking with me about when we would have the DTR. then, on Friday, we had the Singles conference in Tacoma. We held hands adn cuddled there while we watched While you were sleeping. So, we both listened to John Schmidt and that was good. Later on, she looked distressed and I asked her what was the problem. She said that she was confused and I asked her if she would like to talk. We went outside and talked. She told me that she didn't know if she really wanted to go out with me because I hadn't gone through the types of experiences that she had. She told me about her father and some different hard times in her life that she's had. We kind of left it at that. Afterward, I felt alright. The guys when we all got back together were all joking with me about what we were doing while we were gone. I told them that we probably weren't going to be doing anything silly like making out like they were saying we would anytime soon because we weren't even going to be going out. they really believe me. but, it was true. so, for the rest of single's conference, and since then, we've just, i guess been friends.

the next day, i saw bryce moulton. he's such a funny guy. i love bryce. he's so cool. so, we hung out and went to a politics class. after that, i tried to get him to go to a dance class. but, that didn't work out too well. they went to something else. that dance class was rather fun. i met a bunch of girls there. but, i didn't ever go back to any of them. too bad. later on, we did a little boat tour. i called chara and celeste and they came with. i was thinking later that i shouldn't have because it just made me kind of bummed to see chara there. i was thinking, "ok. well... we're friends i guess..." it was kind of hard to talk.

that night at the dance, we were all assigned a number and there was a corresponding person of the opposite gender with the same number. i found mine after I got a piece of paper with my number and showed it around to everyone. the dance was way fun. :) i enjoyed it a lot.